Chapter 20: Suspiciously Hiding

Ney just got home. Rissa tries to act like normal; like it was nothing. she didnt want to tell him, last night she cant sleep thinking if how will she hide this...


very usual day for them, but she notice that Ney's being more passionate and showing his affection to her. "maybe the reason why he's being good to me is because he only WANTED me...", she thinks. as for her, she has to keep everything for herself. one time when they were both eating at a restaurant, she suddenly felt vomiting so she excuse herself immediately. he looked at her when she was standing and covered her mouth; and went to the restroom. he wondered, as his wife back from the restroom. then she ordered another dish...

usually, his wife eats only light meals... but this time she ordered a big platter.

Ney: (watching her eating, makes him wonder why Rissa eats like she has never eat before... so he wanted to ask him) are you... are you... (he was looking at her closely. then she stop as she look at him too, she was thinking that her husband might suspicious about her 'secret'... her heart was beating faster) ARE YOU REALLY HUNGRY?
Rissa: (she was relief when she thought that he might knew something, then she confidently answer) Yes! (then she turn concentrate on her food)
Ney: i see... (as he watches her eating, he get the napkin to wipe the stain on Rissa's lips)

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everyday seems to be ordinary day for them, she's finally back in their room... sleeping together. every night, she gives what he want. making love because she thinks that, thats the only thing he wanted from her. she never been stupid before of loving someone... but because she love him, for some reason.... she's still waiting for him to say...

everytime she has an appointment to the doctor, she has to excuse herself from HIM... there was one time, he called her to tell that he will fetch her after work. but she refuse, she was reasoning out... telling him that she's still have a work to do.

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the doctor gave her a prescription particularly for her pregnancy stage. she went to the pharmacy to buy what the doctor ask for, since she was in the mall already... she decided to buy some grocery stocks.

after grocery, while driving... she happen to pass by and saw a fruit stand selling a DURIAN. she stopped her car and decided to buy some. she also bought some green mangoes... as she felt like wanted to eat some sour food.

when she's finally home, she hurriedly peel the mangoes and put the durian to the bowl. while watching tv, she was delightedly eating all the fruits that she bought awhile ago. she already hide everything that will NOT make her husband suspicious about, she put the milk that she bought awhile ago in the cookie jar and put it inside her closet to hide it from him.

she thought that her husband is going home late, so she was still not preparing food since its still early. she was still eating the green mangoes and durian while watching tv. suddenly, her husband came home early unexpectedly.

he saw her eating some fruits while laying on the sofa and watching tv. he didnt understand the feeling when he saw her like that, then she felt alarmed when he was standing at the door.

Rissa: (fixing herself and was trying not to let him know...) you... you want??? (offering him the bowl filled with fruits)
Ney: uh... no, thanks...
Rissa: i... i thought you're going home late...
Ney: i thought you're are going home late too... (he smiled, like is there something he has to know)
Rissa: (she forgot, that she told him that [reasoning out] she still have work to do).... well... i finish early... what... what about you?
Ney: i finish my work already... tomorrow, i'll just pass the papers to your father...
Rissa: i see.... (she look at her watch and decided to prepare dinner for them)... its getting dark already, i will go prepare for our dinner (she hurriedly get out of the room)

he wonder why his wife behave like this. firstly, he saw her eating a big meal... second, was he saw her covering her mouth and went to the restroom immediately when they were in the restaurant.... third, he saw her now... eating some fruits. he was thinking that his wife might be......

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at dinner....

he was looking at her while eating... he wanted to know, if he was right. he wanted her to tell him something. but all she do was eating and concentrating to the food that she eat. he get some water for her wife.... since he was watching her eating. as he opened the fridge, he notice some medicines in the fridge. so he hurriedly ask Rissa to what are those medicines for, that he found in the fridge.

Ney: what are these for? (holding the medicines and he asked calmly... but his words hit her)
Rissa: (she felt alarm again, she forgot to hide her medicines for pregnancy) ummmmmm.... that's my medicines. (she didnt know what to reason)
Ney: (he read the medicines) are you sick?
Rissa: no... that's my calcium supplement only because i dont like to drink milk.... and the other one is ferrous sulfate, for the blood... im... because anemic.

she was nervous... that he will know about her situation, then suddenly she felt like vomiting again... since the bathroom is far from the dining room, she just vomit at the kitchen sink... then he was watching her.

Ney: what's happening to you? are you sick or something? (he was starting to worried...)
Rissa: uh... No... i ate a lot of fruits awhile ago... that's the reason why im-
Ney: look... if you're not feeling well... just tell me and WE will go to the doctor.
Rissa: (she wanted to say "are you blind? isnt obvious that im pregnant!?! dork!"... but she was trying to be calm and act like normal) no need... i just felt the sourness...i... i'll go take a shower first..... (she hurriedly leave him at the kitchen).


she was starting to worry, didnt know what to do anymore... she has to do something that will make Ney NOT KNOW about her situation. she knew that he's starting to think suspiciously. "what if i'll go to some other country... i just have to stay in a few months there... and..... what if i have to let him go already???..." she thinks, but her mind is still confuse...

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a surprise visit from Liyah who just came from Toronto. Liyah visited her friend at the office.

Rissa: how are you?
Liyah: i was about to ask you the same question... (she gave her best friend a big hug)
Rissa: im fine.... (then she went back to her seat, she was thinking about her situation again)
Liyah: i think you are not fine... its been a long time since we havent talk... you didnt even send me some emails
Rissa: im busy...
Liyah: busy in love life? busy as full-pledge wife to her husband-
Rissa: there you go again...
Liyah: what??? im just telling you that you're not saying anything of what's happening to your life....
Rissa: what am i suppose to tell you... my life is bored not like yours...
Liyah: bored... last time you tell me... that your life is like hell... and now you're bored... what's that suppose to mean?

she started to think about him again... she still didnt know what to do, then Liyah snap her fingers...

Liyah: you know... even if you dont tell me... i can see it in your face...
Rissa: what do you mean?
Liyah: im just thinking that you're falling for your husband now...
Rissa: you're very late with the news.... im just worrying because... im.....

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the next couple of days, at her office... Ney called her to tell her that they'll visit her dad tonight together also with his parents. since its been awhile since they havent seen each other.


Nuengphirom's mansion:

they were at the dining room, chatting around while waiting for the food to be serve. Ney's mom notice that she look more bigger than before.

Ney's mom: dear, i've notice you look bigger now... well, its seems like you've been eating a lot... (she smile while looking at her)
Rissa's dad: well, i prefer my daughter be look fatter than skinny... (he was teasing his own daughter)
Rissa: dad....
Ney's dad: maybe we might didnt know something... are we expecting someone's coming in a few months? (then Ney look at his wife, her heart beats faster... she was surprise when Ney's dad said those words...) anyway, im just kidding... you two dont have to hurry.... (he smiled at THEM).
Rissa: ummm.... dad, can i come with Liyah in New York this weekend?
Ney: huh? (he look at him, why it so sudden and didnt know why she has to go without even telling him)
Rissa: well, Liyah was asking for my help about her business deal...
Rissa's dad: how many days you will stay there?
Rissa: after we close the deal, i'll be back (she lied because she's planning to stay there for a long months)

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as they got home, she felt like dont wanna talk anymore... she was thinking so many things... thinking about her situation... thinking about them... thinking about going with Liyah this coming weekend.

she told everything to Liyah since she's the only person that she could run to and also... want to help with her problem. but even though Liyah respect her decision... she told her that she has to tell her husband.

Ney: why it's so sudden? (he hold her hand)
Rissa: of what?
Ney: that you'll go to New York?
Rissa: because Liyah needs me badly...
Ney: but i need you here too....
Rissa: ("but do you love me???", her mind asks... she was only looking at him) dont worry, i'll be back in a few weeks...
Ney: weeks??? what's that suppose to mean?
Rissa: Ney, you have to know that Liyah's business is there.... and besides, its been a long time since me and Liyah didnt see each other...
Ney: (he was trying to understand her)...ok... (but there is still something he wanted to know more than that...)


while taking a shower in the bathroom, she was crying while touching her tummy. she started to talk to the baby inside of her. telling how much she loves the father of the baby.... but she was doing this because she was so tired of waiting... and its the first time that she has fallen for someone that she could actually be weak if once he comes closer to her. now, she decided that after giving birth in the States. she decided that once she's back in Thailand again... she will let him go... or maybe she dont have to meet him again and rather live a new life in the States.