Chapter 18: Attacked By Paranoia

they have been sex for three weeks already, exploring the mansion is enough for them to crave for themselves. of course Rissa is full pledge wife now for Ney, she cooked breakfast for him, she work together with Ney when they got home as they discuss about the papers and she even give him a massage every night.


one time she was still cooking at the kitchen, but suddenly Ney gave a hug at her back and was kissing to her neck. then she leaned on him to kiss him on the lips. Ney lift her to sit on the table, he was giving her a deep kiss. she notice that her husband wont stop kissing her... then, she asked him to stop.

Ney: what? (smiling at her)
Rissa: arent you going to stop? (then Ney was telling her by his eyes that he's not going stop, then she pinch his nose)
Ney: aaawwww.... why did you do that? (she stood up and was about to sit on the chair)
Rissa: let's go eat now... (then he hugged her again, starting being naughty)
Ney: i wont eat anymore... because im gonna EAT YOU (then raining kisses all over her face)

they can finally solo themselves because Ney's mom went home last week. then suddenly, Ney's phone rang... its was Phoebi in the other line.

Ney: hello? Phoebi.... yeah... (then he went got outside of the kitchen)

the smile on Rissa's face suddenly gone, she got irritated everytime Phoebi calls HER HUSBAND. she didnt want to make herself get affected by jealousy because she knew that Phoebi is a business client of her husband, but sometimes it made her think that 'this woman' is something... why does she always hear her husband laugh over the phone everytime he talks with her and why does he have to hurry everytime he has to meet her....

she was counting backwards from 10-1, she knew what will happen next...

Rissa: 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... (Ney is back in the kitchen again)
Ney: i gotta go... i need to meet MY CLIENT... (from the way she sees in his facial expression, he seemed so excited)

Ney give her a kiss and finally went, he didnt even have time for breakfast. she really gets pissed everytime he does that, as a wife and being concern only... she didnt want her husband to skip meals.

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because of her depression, she went to the office UNFEELING WELL. thinking of her husband with someone just makes her crazy and makes her attacked by paranoia. she wanted to asked him if who is Phoebi in his life... is she a business client or somebody else.

while at work, she suddenly felt a headache because she was facing on the computer for hours and aside from headache, she felt her eyes strained from the pc. so she decided to turn off after she saved the document file that she was checking.

it was already 5pm and she need to get home before dinner, she still have to prepare a dinner for her husband to get home later.

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he was tired when he got home, she look at him... waiting for him to talk about work.... but is he really at work? her mind asked.

Rissa: Ney, how's work?
Ney: it was fine... i just feel tired...
Rissa: did you eat already? i cooked a dinner for you...
Ney: can i get some sleep first... im having a headache today...
Rissa: oh, ok.... (in her mind says "i do have an headache too, did you got that headache from that bitch?")... so how are you and Phoebi? (she wanted to start by asking about Phoebi)
Ney: WE'RE fine... she still have a work to do...
Rissa: i see... what does Phoebi do, anyway?
Ney: she owns a floral shop...
Rissa: i see...
Ney: why do you ask?
Rissa: nothing... i was just thinking that maybe your mom would like to meet her... since she owns a floral shop. ("if i know, you like her because she reminds of your mom", her mind says)

he went to sleep and decided not eat anymore, then she started to put the dishes inside the fridge. then she sigh, while looking at the dishes and said "what a waste...".

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he was already sleeping, while she cant... she was watching him sleeping. wanted, hoping and waiting for him to say that he loves her. she just realize one thing, that maybe she was the only one who's loving him... he maybe only wanted her body but not her heart... he maybe be only wants her but doesnt love her....

its almost midnight at her watch, then his phone suddenly ring... she cant believe that there's still someone who's calling at this hour, since her husband is already sleeping... she decided to look at it if who was calling, its Phoebi in the other line. she answered.

Rissa: hello?
Phoebi: hello? is Ney there?
Rissa: mmmm.... he's already sleeping, may i know who's this?
Phoebi: this is Phoebi.... you must be Ney's wife, right?
Rissa: yeah...
Phoebi: i see... maybe I GOT HIM TIRED awhile ago... there's something i wanna tell him but too bad, he's already sleeping...
Rissa: do...do...do you have any message for him? (she wanted to ask why SHE GOT HIM TIRED, her mind says "did you two do something that i didnt know?")
Phoebi: nevermind... well, just tell him that i called. sorry if i disturb you two... goodnight....

she turned off the phone. she looked at him... then she touch his face gently while looking at him.

Rissa whisper: do you love me? im jealous... i dont wanna see you with someone... do you love her that much?... when will you love me???....

tears fall down from her eyes and then she finally close her eyes to get some sleep...

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the very usual day for them, Rissa cooked some dish for breakfast. wanted to serve their husbands, just like a normal couples do.

a husband to go to work....

a wife that has to set all the things first at home before going to work...



she got home early, to prepare dinner for her husband. at least its one of the things that her husband has to notice her, though she's terribly having stress since yesterday... she wouldnt mind, just for husband. she has never been like this before to any guys, but for HIM... as a wife and because she loves him, she wanted to do everything just to let him notice her.


UNEXPECTED MOMENT


Ney came home without even talking to her, he didnt join her for dinner. she wondered why he behaves like that, she wanted to know if there's any problem at work that she could might help him.

she followed him to their room and just like what she does everytime to her husband who gets home, she gave him a massage but he refused. he was not in the mood and definitely he dont wanna talk to her. she cant help but to ask him if what's wrong.

Rissa: Ney, is there something wrong? (Ney was still not talking to her... she touched his back to ask him again)
Ney: dont touch me...
Rissa: (she was shocked when he sounded so cold, but still she wanted to know so she ask him calmly) is there something wrong? why you're not in the mood? is it about work?
Ney: yes... (he was still not facing her, he dont wanna talk about...)
Rissa: then what is it? i might-
Ney: can please stop asking me!?!... i dont wanna talk about it! (raising his voice when he look at her)
Rissa: (she cant take it anymore, why does he have to raise his voice over her) why are you raising your voice at me?
Ney: because.... because.... because YOU'RE SO ANNOYING, you always ask questions! (he turn his back again, he dont want to let her know why he was pissed off)
Rissa: fine-! i will not ask you again! (she get out of the room and bang the door)
Ney: (but he followed her...) Riz... (she went to her room and lock herself inside the room, he was knocking on the door) Riz... i... im sorry... i just dont wanna talk about...
Rissa: whatever! im not gonna talk to you again.... im not gonna ask you again!
Ney: i just dont wanna talk about it... you're forcing me to tell you...
Rissa: im not forcing you! im just concern!
Ney: (he cant take it anymore... he was mad because...) if you're concern then... why you didnt tell me that Phoebi called last night!?!
Rissa: (she opened the door, realizing that Ney was not in the mood to talk to her because she didnt tell him that WOMAN called) is that the reason why you dont wanna talk to me!?! (she look into his eyes, finding his gaze...)
Ney: YES! (its true, because he has business meeting anytime with Phoebi. she ruined because she didnt told him that Phoebi called)
Rissa: just because i didnt tell you, you're mad at me now!?!
Ney: Yes! because you ruined everything... my business deal with her dad~! you ruined it!
Rissa: is that a problem!?! there are lot of business dealers you can choose from... but why it has to be HER!?!
Ney: is that the reason why you didnt tell me!?! (he paused for awhile and look away from her... then he look at her again) huh! just as i thought, you didnt tell me because YOU ARE TOTALLY JEALOUS!
Rissa: im not! (hit by his words... yes, she's jealous)
Ney: you are!
Rissa: im not! im not Je- (Ney gave her a deep kiss... to let her admit that she's really jealous, but she push him away to stop and slap him.) i said im not jealous! (as she close the door, she recline against the door and she really admits that even from Femy... she started to get jealous)


the next morning, they didnt talk... she still prepares breakfast for him though but she wasnt talking to him, same goes for him. the awkwardness with each other is there, he actually wanted to talk her but he rather not... since he can see her facial expression, she's still mad at him. he wanted to apologize to her but he didnt know how. he gotta make something, so that they can talk again...